I have been lonelier as of late than I have in a long time.
My social life is bordering on dead, a husk of what I imagined it would be this summer. I had a break-up, took a job I was very unsure of, and have spent most of my summer working and catching up on sleep, feeling as though I never had enough.
I moved out of my apartment in Bozeman permanently. Packing is hot and sweaty work but it also brings to light how much unnecessary stuff one has. I wanted to throw most of it away. I cried intermittently. I know that many people have bigger struggles and harder lives than I do but it doesn’t make it easier to move and deal with a break up.
This summer has been the hottest, loneliest, and hardest one I can remember. It doesn’t help that I worked too much and didn’t see enough of the good people in my life.
I hope my next post has better positive vibes attached to it, but I’m not going to apologize for being a person and having a difficult time at the moment.
My summer didn’t pan out as planned (not as badly as yours, perhaps), I felt particularly sad feeling down when the sun was out and most people were having the time of their lives… but this too will pass – as the saying goes. x